levitating on the toilet
thinking of my father
who pontificated once
about colonics.
everyone is walking
around disgusted
with themselves
he said, but we’re all

pink inside.
dad, why?

see, i’m always asking

for more information so

this is where you urge

my milking stop. urge

the orchestra quiet.

place a salty finger on the
 lips
of the pulpit.
finally shhhhhh me
into the blue-black
quiet of unknowing
where I am counting
beans or shucking corn.
skinning rabbit looking

up to say i have no idea
how to — shhhhhhhh.
alone in the tar black quiet.
Noelle Armstrong is a poet from California. She writes about weirdo children, sticky friendships, queer persistence, mind warping, made-up rituals, evangelical madness, fun apocalypses, psychic fears, swan boats, ecosystem collapse, interspecies friendship, and comforts with a spike inside.
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